Summer Fun!

I dont know about you, but sometimes its just fun to get out and do something. After church this morning, Michael decided that it would be fun to go out four wheeling with his sister and her husband and two kids. We got in the truck and headed out to Battlement Mesa, CO where the sis in law lives. We had a blast! We didnt hit too much of a trail, and their jeep started having some issues which are fixable, but it was really alot of fun getting some pics of the gorgeous mountains out there! It really gives true meaning to the verse in Psalm 19:1," The heavens declare the glory of God and the firmament sheweth his handiwork." Here are some pics of the mountains. Enjoy!

Just some random views. Sorry if they look like I am looking upward because I was sitting in the truck while taking them and the truck was moving!

There are alot of Aspen trees up there!This was one huge dandelion puff!

This is what you get when holding the camera lense up to the sky! Didnt turn out too bad!

This was after coming down out of the Aspen tree area. The mountains are absolutely gordeous up here!

When is enough, enough?

I give up. Children are not in my future. Could I be any more inadequate? Where did it all start?


When I lost the baby, I felt so inadequate. Like I couldnt do anything right. Its been 9 months since I lost my angel and I still cant conceive a child. My body wont allow it. I feel like I cant do something right. I would have rather not been pregnant at all than to have all this pain. I feel as though people dont care. I cant have a baby, I cant carry a pregnancy
Michael and I have talked about adoption. He told me he had a friend from college stop by his store and he was able to chat for a minute. I guess the friend and his wife are in the process of adopting their second child. He told Michael about the process and of all the hoops you have to jump through. Michael told me later that even though adopting would be great, he doesnt want to have to go through all those hoops. He said it wouldnt be worth it. As to if it would be worth it, I think otherwise, but I cant handle all those hoops. It will be just another person telling me that I cant have a child and that I am not good enough.